Wandering&Wondering

There seems to be a widespread, mostly unspoken expectation that the world is supposed to calm our fears. That reality, people, systems, certainty, or answers should make us feel psychologically secure.

Performance

I never liked that word, now floating in every pop-psychology and self-help conversation as truth. Life isn’t a stage. Not a play.

When you’re being polite when you’d rather be dismissive, or when you say yes when you’d rather say no, that’s you. Not some character apart from you that took over. When you shut down and don’t know why, when you really want to connect, to meet—it’s not performing. It’s you.

Flip your self

If the purpose is individuation, then how can teachings exist that can take you—an individual—there? What guidelines can exist to show someone what wholeness looks like for them? How can anything take you to be you?

If there are no two identical drops of water, no two identical sunsets, why should there be two identical human beings?

Beneath it All

The separation of domains — psychology over here, spirituality over there, personal experience somewhere else — is itself a kind of fragmentation that the modern world imposed. Labeling and compartmentalizing until the whole picture gets lost.

The Between

”And if the experiment fails,
It’s like being the first person on the moon.
Hopefully, we’ll learn something from it.
That’s how science works, doesn’t it?”

Stop

We’re still in an age where people want to build roots, buy roots, but not plant roots inside. This doesn’t even sound rational to most, who think their roots are in the past.

Stop to wonder…
Not analyze, not conclude, not calculate, not plan, not defend, not prepare. But actually wonder.

On the Borderline

 

“Less is more. Clear the blog. Let it breathe.”
So I did.

“Don’t make people lazy.”
So I won’t.

Then I made coffee and sat at my desk to watch the sun rise.

Wonder. The antidote to ego

People think the antidote to ego is humility, discipline, meditation, compassion, spiritual practice, asceticism…
All of that is surface-level management.

The real antidote to ego is wonder.

Losing Wonder

The more meaningless one’s life is,
the more meaning one gives to meaningless things.

When the inner field goes quiet, the psyche fills the silence with noise.
Not by choice — by structural necessity.

You’re born, you live, you die.
So what?
Millions of people, like you and me, have come and gone.